How Do I be a Mother to My Child… When My Only Child is in Heaven?
by Heather Kimble

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Hannah’s First Christmas Dress |
With a new baby comes much excitement. Everything is a new experience for that baby. Parents take monthly pictures of their babies celebrating “1 month”, “2 months”, and so on. They also buy “My First ___” outfits and accessories. But when your baby dies these things are taken away. But why should they be taken from us? Why can’t we still celebrate our baby’s life? I decided that Hannah’s life deserves to be celebrated and I deserve to be a mother to her still. I decided that I am going to celebrate her life every month for the first year. Just like mothers of living babies do. I also decided I’m going to celebrate her life by getting her the “My First ___” outfits and accessories. Just like mothers of living babies do.
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Hannah’s 1 Month Old Sticker and Outfit |
In beginning, I was scared and nervous that this was just an awful idea. That it might make things worse than they already are. But it’s been the exact opposite. It is bittersweet but it’s a wonderful experience at the same time. I’m giving myself the experience of being a first time mom by picking out adorable items for my daughter. Enjoying my first baby. It will never be the same but its all I have and I refuse to let it go or to let someone take that away.
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The Bib Hannah’s Daddy Picked Out for Her |
Thank you so much Sugantha ❤
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Beautiful heather!!! I love hearing about your healing process. Think about you alot!!!!
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