She Brings Joy

She Brings Joy

by Sarah Grandfield-Connors

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I have had a difficult time writing something out for this project, as I am going through a low time. Even after four years, there are low times, when the sadness leaks out of you and touches everything around you. I wanted to begin with an introduction and a background to my daughter’s story. I hope to write here again, and would love to know that when I do- anyone reading will see the human being that my baby was, instead of the still images of a photograph.

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Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

by Julie Erickson

field-flower-1-1551147-639x426September 29, 2014 marks a turning point in my life: what was supposed to be a quick ultrasound on that day just as suddenly became a nonstop nightmare. Not 24 hours before, my OB/GYN had detected a faint noise in my baby’s heart tones that seemed a bit strange at a routine checkup. She had almost dismissed it and sent me on my way, but at the last second had decided that I should be sent for a scan, “just to be sure it was nothing.” As I left her office that afternoon, she encouraged me not to have fear, as she felt it was likely just that: nothing.

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Choosing Bentley

Choosing Bentley

by Ashley Bowman

intimate-1432768December 24th 2013, the day we got a positive pregnancy test. I remember being so excited I almost couldn’t wait for my husband to get home to tell him, he ALMOST found out over the phone. We had been trying to get pregnant since July and although it didn’t take but a few months, it felt like forever every time I had a negative pregnancy test. At one point I remember thinking to myself: you have two healthy children and maybe you should just be happy with that. I look back at that now like it was some sort of foreshadowing for what we were about to experience in the future, as crazy as that sounds.

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What to Say When You Don’t Know What to Say

When to Say When You Don’t Know What to Say

by Jason Kimble

561983_45348666It has been a really long time since I have posted a blog post.  I think that the reason that it has been so long is because I just don’t know what to say.  I had reached a point in my grief a little while back where I thought that things were just “fixed.”  I thought that I was at a point where I had moved into a place where I felt like this was something that I had dealt with and had “made peace” with.  I was wrong.

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