God Carries Us Through – Day 34

God Carries Us Through – Day 34

by Heather Kimble

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**The last few devotionals for Lent will be done with, God Will Carry You Through by Max Lucado.

“You will get through this. It won’t be painless. It won’t be quick. God will use this mess for good. Don’t be foolish or naïve. But don’t despair either. With God’s help, you will get through this.”

– Max Lucado
 

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Sharing Your Story – Day 33

Sharing Your Story – Day 33

by Heather Kimble

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But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect.

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Update #1 – Hidden Unforgiveness/Forgiving Others – Day 32

**You can see my original hidden unforgiveness devotional here and forgiving others devotional here.

As I did these two devotionals on forgiveness and unforgiveness I was sure that I had forgiven those that hurt me. I couldn’t be more wrong. The unforgiveness towards two people in my life just boiled up inside me. I was angry… no I was furious. I hate this feeling, but I couldn’t control it and it came out of nowhere. I didn’t expect it at all. I thought all my feelings on forgiveness and unforgiveness were resolved. Here I am back at the beginning.

Why should I care about this person who never called, sent a card, or even came to Hannah’s funeral?! Why should I care about the person who was selfish in our time of desperation in planning the burial of our Baby Girl?!

Why?!?!?!?!

I’m still angry at them. I wish I could make this anger go away. I wish there was an instant fix, but there’s not. I don’t want to be around them. I don’t care if I see them. I don’t care to hear from them or hear about them.

I don’t expect an apology from them ever. They don’t think they did anything wrong. But it’s not about getting an apology from them. It’s about me forgiving them and releasing this resentment and anger. It’s between me and God. I can’t control the actions of others, but I can work on myself and control my actions with God’s help.

Underneath this anger is hurt. These people hurt me deeply. The wounds are still fresh and raw. How could they do these things? I thought they loved and cared about us?

I decided that I needed to revisit these two devotionals. I need God’s help to forgive. I needs God’s help to let go and release this anger.


Father, forgive them for they do not know what they are doing.

                                                                           Luke 23:34



Search me, O God, and know my heart: test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

 
Psalm 139:23-24 
 
 
God will enable you to forgive when you place your confidence in His ability. Read Isaiah 41:10 and Philippians 4:13. Say, “God, thank You for exposing my unforgiveness toward                                                                         . I forgive                                                                                  for                                                                                                                           .” 
 



Write these words in red letters over your list of names. Tear up the paper and throw it away.

I’ll Know My Child in Heaven – Day 31

Revelation 21:3-4

And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”



Psalm 27:4, 8

One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of he Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord…. My heart says of you, “Seek his face!” Your face, Lord, I will seek.

1. What do you most look forward to about Heaven?

I can’t wait to see Hannah, my grandfathers, and grandmothers. I can’t wait to see God. I look forward to being in paradise and always being happy.

2. What questions will you finally have answers to?

Did God tell Hannah about us? That we love her so much. That we fought so hard to keep her. That we miss her every single day.

3. How has your perspective on the loss of your child been changed by God during your journey?

Read more about heaven: Isaiah 35:10; Ezekiel 1:26-28; Luke 15:10; John 3:5-7; 1 Corinthians 15:36-38; Philippians 3:20-21; 1 Thessalonians 4:16-17; 2 Timothy 4:8; Hebrews 12:22-23; Revelation 15:2-3; 20:1-22:5.


Seeking Others Before You, Beside You, Behind You – Day 30

2 Timothy 2:1-3

You then, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus. And the things you have heard me say in the presence of many witnesses entrust to reliable men who will also be qualified to teach others. Endure hardship with us like a good soldier of Christ Jesus.

1. How can someone before you in grief guide you in your journey? Do you have someone before you? Share at least one way they’ve helped you.

She lost her baby girl a few years ago. Her daughter was born still. Before Hannah passed away, she simply said how sorry she was and offered to be there for us. Instead of sharing those “miracle” stories, she just cried for us. She told me there’s no getting over it and that’s ok. That there will always be pain and that’s ok. She has encouraged me in the choices I made to mourn and remember Hannah. She understands.

2. Who are the people beside you? How do they support you?

As you all know from this blog that Victoria has lost her four babies through miscarriage (read her story here). She is always there if something triggers me. We can talk to each other about our babies. We understand each other when something upsets us. We don’t need to explain or justify ourselves to one another about the way we feel. We don’t need to walk this journey of loss alone.

3. Turn around, look back. Who has suffered loss and needs you to reach out to them? How will you help them?

I have seen many women suffer the loss of their babies after me. My heart breaks for each and every one of them. I started this blog/website so that I may help those going through this heartbreaking loss. I want them to know that they are not alone. I want to help and support them in any and every way I can. Hannah’s Heart and Love is in the process of becoming a nonprofit so that we can help and support even more on this journey of loss. Whether it’s through miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy, stillbirth, or early infant death a baby died and a little heart stopped beating. All of our babies deserve to be recognized. We have the right to feel pain and mourn them in our own way. We will always walk around with a limp until the day we die. It’s important to know that we are not alone. I personally pray for each and every person who has lost their baby, who’s baby has been given a fatal diagnosis, and those who will lose their baby and have no idea it will happen.