God Carries Us Through – Day 34
by Heather Kimble
**The last few devotionals for Lent will be done with, God Will Carry You Through by Max Lucado.
“You will get through this. It won’t be painless. It won’t be quick. God will use this mess for good. Don’t be foolish or naïve. But don’t despair either. With God’s help, you will get through this.”
– Max Lucado
And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”
Psalm 27:4, 8
One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of he Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord…. My heart says of you, “Seek his face!” Your face, Lord, I will seek.
1. What do you most look forward to about Heaven?
I can’t wait to see Hannah, my grandfathers, and grandmothers. I can’t wait to see God. I look forward to being in paradise and always being happy.
2. What questions will you finally have answers to?
Did God tell Hannah about us? That we love her so much. That we fought so hard to keep her. That we miss her every single day.
3. How has your perspective on the loss of your child been changed by God during your journey?
Read more about heaven: Isaiah 35:10; Ezekiel 1:26-28; Luke 15:10; John 3:5-7; 1 Corinthians 15:36-38; Philippians 3:20-21; 1 Thessalonians 4:16-17; 2 Timothy 4:8; Hebrews 12:22-23; Revelation 15:2-3; 20:1-22:5.
Behold I will create new heavens and a new earth. The former things will not be remembered, nor will they come to mind, But be glad and rejoice forever in what I will create.
1. The gallery of your life is filled with emotional paintings. Share about your painting for each of the stages of your journey – Hiding, Suffering, Questioning, and so on.
Hiding – A black hole painted with black, grays, and charcoal colors. Subtle hints of whites throughout – God is ALWAYS there.
Suffering – The heart is broken into two pieces. It’s covered in blood. The is empty, but the emptiness represents the excruciating pain. The heart is on a white background – God is ALWAYS there.
Questioning – A black question mark surrounding by all of my unanswered questions. God is ALWAYS there.
Forgiving – The sky over the ocean. The first half is bright, colorful, and beautiful as the sun is shining and the water sparkles. The second half is dark, void of most color, but in the corner the moonlight is shining, providing light in the darkness – God is ALWAYS there.
Relating – Two people embracing with a hug. Sometimes that is all that is needed – God is ALWAYS there.
Seeking – God’s right hand reaching down from the Heavens to me; to hold my hand and guide me – God is ALWAYS there.
2. Now examine each painting. Do you see God there? Contemplate His strength in each of those areas. Praise Him for who He is. With your new eyes, perhaps a few new brush strokes are in order.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with my right hand.
1. Is your past holding you captive from your future? If so, how?
I don’t think so. I am continually taking steps forward. That’s the only way to go. I struggle a lot and there are times I don’t want to take anymore steps. This isn’t easy and I refuse to leave Hannah in the past. She is apart of my past, present, and future.
2. God wants to strengthen you and help you. In what ways can you allow Him to hold your hand? In what ways can you allow others to hold your hand?
I have made the conscious decision the day Hannah was given a fatal diagnosis that I would not be angry at God. I knew I needed Him more than ever and I turned to Him. He is walking with me through this journey God understands my pain, fears, and anger.
I hate asking for help but I’m only human and I know I can’t do this on my own. I have let people in. I allow people to follow me on this journey as I walk through it. Their prayers are powerful. People are holding my hand tightly every time they say a prayer for us, think of us, ask how we are, send a message, talk about Hannah, spend time with me, and talk to me.